Sacrifice...

It all happened so quickly. Here I am drenched in thick gooey scarlet bed that covers almost every inch of me. Floating about aimlessly in what seems to be a segregated abode of water. My wings are of no use now. My insides seem bloated and I can sense that my end is near.

I lived to serve my purpose and I did, to my fullest potential. I sacrifices, I helped, I took on a burden that was meant for me and me alone to carry. I did everything i was created to do without complaining.

I just thought i deserved a better ending. A burial more appropriate for me. But I guess this is my dreaded fate. I remember how I was trained so hard for my only purpose and how anxiously I hoped that I would serve that purpose well. I went throught extreme training that made me the perfect creation to carry out the responsibility entrusted to me.

So that day came when I was chosen, chosen to fulfill my specific purpose in this so called life. I carried my burden with endurance and strength. Never once did I break down and let my burden spillover. I served my master well l and this is how she repaid me.

So stuck in this bowl of water I remain. Dirty and filthy. An irresponsible girl my master is. I hope no other of my kind will have an ending as undignified as mine. But before I die and get flushed into eternity I have but one dying wish... My dying wish is for my name to be remembered....- KOTEX, (whisper, Laurier, carefree.. etc whichever applies to the reader).


FORGIVE ME! I wrote it in form 4 during one of the lunch breaks. I was so tempted to change some bits of it but I refrained. So yucky when I read it now. No not the story, the sentences and the choice of words!

Btw, my exams are over! Farewell CIMP hello another four years of my degree course!

Another reason why I'm in this 'yay' mood.

I like...

I like baking quite a lot. Except for now. We had this bake sale for charity last week. I was so exhausted from baking and preparing for classes and assignments! Not funny little bunny! Gimme a week and I should be fit to sieve, stir and fold in again.








This is the view from my favourite place when it rains. It's been raining so much lately. I like rain...I want it to rain all the time,... except when I don't want it too. I don't like the bottom of my pants getting damp from the puddles I try so hard to avoid.







I like flip flops. :) Colourful comfy ones that I can wear everywhere.





I LIKE caligraphy pens! Actually I like all sort of pens but this pen is unique. Thank you BRIAN GAN for the belated b'day pressie. It was worth the wait! I think the name of the pen is so suitable-JOY! That's exactly what I felt when I first laid eyes on it.

I like writing with MY caligraphy pen. I like the quote alot too. Don't you?

There you go Mr. abc , a picture post on my blog just for you.

This and That

I had a panic attack about next year, yesterday. (next year and yesterday look weird together).

Yesterday, I had a panic attack about next year. (does this look better?)

It started when I sat myself at the piano and ran my fingers over the keys.

It hit me.

'It' being the absense of my piano when I'm away. So I made a list of the few things I will miss and another of the things i will look forward too.

Things I will miss:
My piano (no prize for whoever guessed that)
My garden
My favourite place by the window in the kitchen that's overlooking the fishpond
My dogs-Cookie Missy and Zoe
Ping pong and futsal
Using Lah, lor, haiyoh and HOYOH
My room AND toilet
Mum's cooking
and of course Friends and Family la.

Things I will look forward to:
ETHAN (can't wait to bite his bottom...sounds wrong i know, and to teach him to say Kristy is Puhreety)
The parks there
Exploring new places
Public transport I can actually figure out
New sports to learn (yes Jean, Aussie rules footie)
Baking and cooking more
Discovering a new favourite place
Winter coats
and imitating the Aussie Ack-cent maittie!



Mixed feelings are weird feelings.
Its like having sambal with banana. Not ngam la..!